im the sickest motha fucka

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 04:51:23 GMT

whoa i havent updated this in sooooo long. so yeah, i have a girlfriend now and i love her tons. my life is finally going good, which is weird for me i dont know what to do. haha. hmm new years was fun except my baby was grounded so i kinda didnt get to see her at 12. :( . and yeah nothing has been happening lately, except we are selling our house and moving to la jolla which can be looked at as a good and a bad thing, i mean ill be like 5 minutes walking from the beach but ill be away from santee. i know i hate santee but i still will miss everyone here. oh well surf sessions baby thats all i need to think about. so yeah well im outy peeps. comment if you want, but if you dont i could care less. <3wes

oh yeah my birthday is on the 6th (thursday) im gunna be 18. what now!!

I love melissa S2

i dont update much anymore. this song is badass

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 04:57:06 GMT

No trust can be given freely, it's a valuable commodity,
but obviously this is something you've never learned.
Faith is something that you put in friends, and had I excess morals to lend,
I'd let you borrow them, but my trust you haven't earned.
We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely.
I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me.
No bond can ever seem to make a stable fit in our relationship,
but one thing that never comes between us is honesty.
When you have something to say, you always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead, avoid me.
We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely.
I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me.
Straight up is how you'll see me stand, but it is never in your plans to be straight forward,
so instead, you use deceit.
Now I would like to take apart what you've been breaking from the start.
I'll remain intact, I won't be broken in defeat.
We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached from you completely.
I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me.
No trust!

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 17:59:29 GMT

My heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned to stone. your stomach feels sick for someone else. I’ve broken both my legs falling for you. drag me on the ground. powerless I stand, tarnished blade, cutting through, pushed into my vein. blood still stains my hands. sharpening my sense of pain outside, my heart bleeds no more. killing everything off inside. make sense of everything you tried to hide, hide from me. my heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned to stone. my stomach feels sore from cutting up. I ruined all my sanctity for you. smash me on the ground. I wanted to convince myself there’s nothing else to do. I wanted to. provide you with proof of what you put me through. I wanted to. pretend that I was you. killing everything off inside. make sense of everything you tried to hide, hide from me. my heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned to stone. your stomach feels sick for someone else. I’ve broken both my legs falling for you. smash me on the ground.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 01:17:29 GMT

last night went to country fest with cody, kim, heather, and some other people. that was badass. i had one of the best nights. couldnt of had a better time with anyone else. i loved it. well today i havent done anything. im bored. tomorrow should be fun. Welp see ya later.

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 21:11:51 GMT

so last night was really borring. picked up akasha, nicole, and rachel and we just cruised around, we couldnt find anything to do. it was a lil borring, but atleast i got to hang out with one of the siiicest chicks. life is going good right now, just bought some shit for my car, all i want/need is her. i wish she realized how much i have to offer. welp see ya later.

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 04:03:20 GMT

Never Again.
I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine.
Maybe when you find out that I'm dead,
you'll realize what you did to me.

[Chorus]
And if my lungs still let me breathe,
would you be there for me.
If I can make myself believe,
I'll give you back what you took away.

No, I won't let it go.
Douse myself in gasoline.
So don't save me when you come into the fire.
I'd rather die than have to see your smile.

[Chorus]

You made me swear [x2].
I, I can't sleep.
Realize all these things that you took from me.
Smash my heart (you made me swear)
into dust. (you made me swear)
Suffocate my mind. (you made me swear)
Tear at me from inside. (you made me swear)
Smash apart what you created.
How can i ever stop you from crushing my soul?
It was, it was yours, yours to begin with.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 04:32:03 GMT

so tonight me and rodo played my dad and his at bball. damn i am soo out of shape. and i was way too high to play, we lost haha. and so i get paid soon hopefully. that should be nice. still life is good only missing that one thing. hmmmmmmm?

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 18:31:32 GMT

last night i went to the gay football game. i knew we were going to lose. that was borring. im bored. i want to go get some clothes today with my mom, but she has been gay to me lately so i dunno if that will happen. well i got nothing to say so see ya later.

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 05:01:21 GMT

erik is gay thats all i have to say. um so im grounded. wee what fun. i got no life. i am really missing something. but still no one seems to care. i wonder where you go when you die. hmmm i wonder? maybe ill have to see, ill get back to you with details.

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 16:54:54 GMT

so lately i have been up to nothing like usual. last night i was at V's then went to kyles for a boat party haha. um i need to work today but i dont want to. life had been pretty good to me lately, im only missing one thing. welp im outy see ya later

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 05:53:46 GMT

um school is still gay just like it has always been. friends are cool. my job is going allright i think. i hope i get paid soon i need money. got nothing else to say escept life is borring. i need some excitement.

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 04:08:51 GMT

well on saturday jamison had a huge party. that was cool untill a bunch of gay ppl showed up and it got way out of hand. um tried to go to work on sunday but they sent me home cuz i was way too sick. ive seeb sick since sunday morning, it sucks. i quit smoking grits. thats a good thing. welp got nothing else to say so see ya later.

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 03:13:04 GMT

life is fucking shitty. i get something back in my life that i love more than almost anything. and now its fucking gone. fuck that. whats the point of living when this kind of shit happens. fuck santana high school. this school is fucking corrupt. i fucking hate it. i cant wait untill im 18 i am free to do whatever the fuck i want and my parents cant say "we dont want you doing that b/c we could get in trouble for it" i fucking hate everything. this is gay. bye

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 03:19:06 GMT

school is gay. um had a job interview yesterday, it went allright i think. i figured im just gunna kick back and enjoy life for now and wait for a girl to come, im wasting time looking, they are all worthless pieces of shit. welp see ya later

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 02:53:13 GMT

school is gay. um i figured out that girls are not worth my trouble anymore. im just gunna kick back and enjoy the good times untill the right one comes my way. maybe going to the desert with some guys this weekend. i cant wait untill winter time, x-mas and 2 weeks later my b-day. and no school. i cant wait. welp see ya later

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 05:30:19 GMT

weekend went by fast. saw napoleon dynatmite last night. jesus that was fucking funny. had some dank shit this weekend. hell yes. hmm nothing else really happened. welp school tomorrow. what fun....

where were you when i needed you?

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 04:30:48 GMT

today was a good day. im glad things work out the way they did. i hope i dont get my hopes up tho.

damn it could of been like this all along....

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 03:08:51 GMT

lets see, 3 day weekend. so friday i dont remember what i did. saturday there is just little parts i remember, the crew got faded together. it was sick. spent the night at eriks that night. then last night me and erik and jaybob bought some herb and smoked it all, cant complain there. and today i sat around all day. and i finally went to see monica and i had to leave right when i got there cuz my parents were being douche bags. but all i got to say is thanks monica. you mean the world to me right now. i hope things just keep getting better babe. your awesome, and perfect!S2 :-)

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 01:10:42 GMT

school has been easy and awesome. me and monica are "us" now haha. monica you are awesome. muchS2 dude. um nothing has been going on other than school and monica. starts work tuesday i hope. welp see ya later.

monica S2S2S2S2S2S2S2S2 :-)

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 00:57:52 GMT

fuck liberals. bush 04' kerry is a liar and a flippin floppin hippy bitch. you want someone who has been caught lying how many times??? to be ur president!? ya he is gay and a liar. BUSH 04'

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 04:50:54 GMT

last night i got high as hell and cruised around with erik. we made a fort in jaybobs garage out of blankets and chairs and we sat in it and got ripped. today i woke up and went car shopping. first car we looked at we bought. its a 95 civic and its white and i get it on weds or something. gunna be mobbin that shit for sure. welp see ya later

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 18:29:34 GMT

so the first week of school is over. hell yeah. it has been fun. last night i got way trashed haha. sry erik. um so yeah jessica is waaaaay fun to hang out with. i like her a lot. and i got a job finally, and im getting a new car. how sick is that!? welp see ya later

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 05:08:13 GMT

today went to gay school. my classes are badass. especially my 5th period. easily the best. and then after school hung out did the usual and me and jessica just chilled all night. :) jessica is funny. im gunna wash her car tomorrow. im such a nice guy. welp im out. see ya later kids

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 05:40:20 GMT

I feel eyelashes on my cheek
And they lacerate my flesh
A pain so good
Put your hand in mine
Never let go
Never wake up 'cause I'm done with promises
I'm taking blood oaths
Feels likes you could kiss my imperfections
My imperfections away
And I would stand
Stand by your side until the sun turns the sky
All the colors I see in your eyes

I'll never need to see the sun again
There's enough light in your eyes to light up our little world
So take me, take my away
Kill me slowly, I'll never be the same

I swear to you, on everything I am
And I dedicare to you all that I have
And I promise you that I will stand right by your side
Forever and always until the day I die

The bite marks on my neck never felt so good
I'm losing control and it's all that I can do
Not to blackout and fall into lust with you
Your kisses infect me
The dark gift is loving you

And I feel immortal and I want to make you feel the same
So stand by me as we immulate
We can burn in each other's arms

Move to where!?!?

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 17:44:05 GMT

summer is over. its wierd. i love summer but yet i love seeing all my bud's at school every day. my parents keep asking me if they move to hawaii if i would move with them. thats a hard descision. but i dunno. i just want school to start and my senior to finally get over with.